…there is no progress”. Frederick Douglass c. 1818 – February 20, 1895
So, unfortunately Raleigh said no. Going through a period of restructuring, they have made the decision to define themselves as an organisation that will work solely with rural projects so Bugando school, in the middle of a city, did not meet that criteria. Jim was very kind about it when explaining and was as disappointed as I was that they couldn’t take it any further. He has other organisations in mind that he will put me in contact with and, although I forgot to say at the time, I really appreciate that he came to see the school and had a lot of advice, ideas and information to give (and also handy tips for me travelling around Tanzania).
But oh, I can’t tell you how disappointed I feel. It’s my fault – I’d done a little bit of dreaming, imagined the project taking shape, it had become a reality in my mind, which made a longer drop when the bubble burst. To continue seems overwhelming – rather than have volunteers and an organisation who understand about building in Tanzania I’ll have to find fundis for building furniture, fixing floors and roofs, building fences, improving sanitation. Christ, I don’t even know where to start! I also need a charity under whose umbrella I can work so that all those people who’ve already said they want to support the project have a registered number and can be confident about where their money is going.
But it’s not like giving up is an option so no time for doubts and procrastination. Abdallah, Hassani, Theresa, Agropea and co desperately need someone to care about and value their right to a decent education and learning environment, so I guess I’m just going to have to get my boiler suit on and start learning the kiswahili vocab for construction. I’m going to pitch Forever Angels and see if they’ll allow me to fundraise and do the work for the project under their name and there are other organisations that I know of and that Jim will be putting me in touch with that hopefully can help. It’s just going to be a lot more work is all – thank goodness I’ve decided to stay for another year…